"I would do anything for love...."

"...but I won't watch highschool musical." - Meatloaf

Its 4am and I just stayed up having a lan party with 2 rad peoples.... reciting submissions from www.fmylife.com. I may or may not have fake posted as a coworker I hate, but about true events. Fuck it!!! I'm not caring.

Tonight ruled pretty hard. Today wasn't so bad either.

Other things that ruled, or may have side effects of happiness:

- bought my boss a ipod shuffle the color of his sports team
- a friend who works at vans is holding all three of the bad brains x vans tees for me.
- harley davidson calendar I received as a gift from someone pretty awesome
- having tomorrow off.
- the weather
- mac batteries lasting long enough for a wonderful hang out
- being impact in a "what font are you?" Quiz

i love you still blackberry for bringing me closer to this blog.

End #3 entry from phone

2nd post from a blackberry

Yesterday I received a pack of yo! mtv raps trading cards in my record package. I was 10x more stoked on this than my original order. Along with these three, there were krs-one, public enemy, beastie boys, and some other goods. Life is awesome, and I'm posting from the john.

Ps. Blackberry, you rule my life. I <3 you

Pss. I'm sure there will be more updates before the end of the night

Dear Blog,

Now that I found out how to update you from my blackberry, you will never be neglected again.

Sincerely,
- Billy

dear keano!

welcome back! im soooooo excited!

i dont know...

it's what i want, but no communication is going to kill me... maybe it's better this way. That way, nobody is allowed to care. I want to move on (without one another), and apparently so does she. But now that shes proving that, im "smothering" her. And by doing so, i've eliminated what was left of being best/close friends.... (or at least two people who weren't together anymore, but genuinely cared so much for one another.) Its obvious I'm being selfish, and that the current actions are what she needs to not be hurt and to move on. I have to be happy for her. I want to care and worry about her, but that's not going to help her find happiness. Just cloud everything.

i've hurt you
you've bored me
you're out trying to find you,
while i'm here pretending to be me.

















erase me, because that's what ive done to you for so long. do what you have to. in the long run, i'll be happy for you because you deserve only the best. i'll miss you and our friendship. the smothering has ended, i promise.

wake the fuck up world

and the numbers keep growing

this week

fucking sucks.

fuck craigslist.
fuck work.


and most of all..


FUCK YOU CHRISTMAS!












thanksgiving is better than you anyway.

we kept faith and a switchblade tucked beneath my coat

lies
backstabbing
and deceit.

things i try to stay away from, and not do myself.... but it seems these situations find me.

these things also help me grow.

ive made a two part mix, a double disc if you will. ive bumped it for the past 24 hours straight. i was thinking about uploading it to that mixtape.com thing or whatever, but nobody reads this so im not. this is my mixtape(s) for friends and for driving around. ive felt like ive just wanted to drive around. night time, windows down, and maybe 3 other cars on the road. just aimlessly driving. Thinking about absolutely nothing, yet clearning my mind.

disc 1 (not really a disc but its on my ipod. i just thought i'd name the mixes disc 1 and 2)





















disc 2

"I'll tell you stage dives make me feel more alive..."

its all ive wanted to do lately.

at a show punk rock or not... i want to stage dive
listening to trash talk in my car... i want to stage dive
in line at the grocery store... i want to headwalk
at the bar... i want to headwalk

please gather 100 people. put them in my backyard, and allow me to crawl and walk on their heads. its all i can think about lately.

this is probably the most poser-ish post ever, but i want to do it

i like food...

and i like this blog. so i will put it together