i woke up way too late to satisfy my crockpot fever. The pulled pork sandwiches i was going to make takes at least 8 hours. im not going to have a happy roommate, bc she was looking forward to it.

i took a personal day today, and i have way tooooo much shit to do, and i wont get any of it done unless i make myself a list. this list will also have a checkbox next to each task to check for completion. i seriously suck at finishing a massive amounts of things unless i write it out. luckily i have a super duper sweet memo pad. (which i just got an awesome bad brains x vans sticker for.)

heres my list that's also written down.

- pick up coles phone from lisa at pembroke
- take above mentioned phone to the office (in greenbrier) to ship off with another customers phone.
- go do my taxes
- clean car (this probably wont get done)
- go buy a pocket friendly camera
- go pay gas bill
- mosh the fuck out of my car while listening to pulling teeth
- go look at beds (twin size, sorry ladies....or doods<3)
- take my dogs for a run
- call cole to let him know i shipped the phone
- buy bbq sandwiches from dog and burger
- make some green tea

i feel like im forgetting something very very important. who knows.

hopefully ill get this done all before 8, bc i have somewhere to be.

ps: i need to see polar bear club. just so i can jump on some heads while singing the intro (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KACj3gGmiz4)

pss. bbm me.

Oh Twelvie

How you make my nights warm

In compliance with the last entry

Dear Shuffle,

I love you!

so ive decided...

... That I will try and upload a mix tape/cd/list once a week. I went to muxtape.com to try and start an account up, but they're not allowing sign ups right now. So what I will do for today, and every week is create a mix of just some tunes I'm jamming that week, and upload the mix so you can download.

This week's playlist is a Valentine's Day inspired playlist, although it was yesterday.



Mixtape HERE! <------------ obviously the download link.

Enjoy, let me know what you think.

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In other events, Valentine's Day kinda sucked. Up until I went to my 'rents house. They made a feast. I ate a lot, as usual. We were talking about alcohol breverages when I preceded to tell them my drink of choice this past month has been bourban and ginger-ale. Ive slowly made the transition from beer to liqour. I dont really get drunk a lot, but that changed later that night. Anyhow, My dad gave me a full bottle of Gentleman Jack, A BIG ONE (1.75 Liters!) My dad does a lot of woodwork for people on the side, building them things like cabinets, armoirs, frames, and etc. He refuses to take money, but of course the customer wants to give, so he tells them to just buy him bottles of different liqours. He had about three bottles, and he gave me one... I didnt think i'd ever put a damper in the bottle.. a couple of friends and I drank more than half of the bottle last night. It was pretty ridiculous. Twelvie, Matteo, Lisa, Tom, Brittany, and myself just sat around an awesome display of a bonfire that was hosted and created by Twelvie. We just kicked it hard, all of us, Valentineless. It was a good night. Jack, you are not that much of a Gentleman as i thought. You were very very sneaky, and had me floored. Although im not struggling today, and headache-less, im sooooooo tired.

i love my friends, and I made a new one last night.

"I would do anything for love...."

"...but I won't watch highschool musical." - Meatloaf

Its 4am and I just stayed up having a lan party with 2 rad peoples.... reciting submissions from www.fmylife.com. I may or may not have fake posted as a coworker I hate, but about true events. Fuck it!!! I'm not caring.

Tonight ruled pretty hard. Today wasn't so bad either.

Other things that ruled, or may have side effects of happiness:

- bought my boss a ipod shuffle the color of his sports team
- a friend who works at vans is holding all three of the bad brains x vans tees for me.
- harley davidson calendar I received as a gift from someone pretty awesome
- having tomorrow off.
- the weather
- mac batteries lasting long enough for a wonderful hang out
- being impact in a "what font are you?" Quiz

i love you still blackberry for bringing me closer to this blog.

End #3 entry from phone

2nd post from a blackberry

Yesterday I received a pack of yo! mtv raps trading cards in my record package. I was 10x more stoked on this than my original order. Along with these three, there were krs-one, public enemy, beastie boys, and some other goods. Life is awesome, and I'm posting from the john.

Ps. Blackberry, you rule my life. I <3 you

Pss. I'm sure there will be more updates before the end of the night

Dear Blog,

Now that I found out how to update you from my blackberry, you will never be neglected again.

Sincerely,
- Billy

dear keano!

welcome back! im soooooo excited!

i dont know...

it's what i want, but no communication is going to kill me... maybe it's better this way. That way, nobody is allowed to care. I want to move on (without one another), and apparently so does she. But now that shes proving that, im "smothering" her. And by doing so, i've eliminated what was left of being best/close friends.... (or at least two people who weren't together anymore, but genuinely cared so much for one another.) Its obvious I'm being selfish, and that the current actions are what she needs to not be hurt and to move on. I have to be happy for her. I want to care and worry about her, but that's not going to help her find happiness. Just cloud everything.

i've hurt you
you've bored me
you're out trying to find you,
while i'm here pretending to be me.

















erase me, because that's what ive done to you for so long. do what you have to. in the long run, i'll be happy for you because you deserve only the best. i'll miss you and our friendship. the smothering has ended, i promise.

wake the fuck up world

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