200th post...

This is it... With Justin Timberlake's "Future sex/ love sounds" playing in the background... Or on my iPod dock



I don't know what I should put in it, so I'm just going to make it boring.



I've changed a lot since my first post almost 2 years ago... Fuck, I've changed a lot since January. I feel like I'm a new or different person everyday it seems. I'm up, then I'm down. I'm left, then I'm right, and I don't really know if I can say if its a good or a bad thing. Sorry for those who might see it as a bad thing, but I'm content.



I've always worried that I'll never be able to make up my mind when it comes to anything and everything important. This has always affected my happiness because I can never make up my mind on what I want or need. I'm still that way to this day. Sometimes it scares me, yet I've become rather fearless. Recently I've become pretty sure, maybe even absolutely sure, on a couple things. One of them being that I'll be happy no matter what, and that I just want to live life with no regrets. I love running into what I don't know (saves the day reference, sorta). The other is knowing what I want in my life. I'm not going to hold back from keeping myself happy ever again... This sounds selfish, but the most important thing is looking out for #1, and I can't make anyone else happy until I'm happy... I'm happy now, and I'm willing to go to great lengths to keep it that way.